Tuesday, February 4, 2014

What a Nice Change: A Review of the Past Year

The day has finally (and unexpectedly) come. The strange looks I get from my friends were no match for my determination to be lazy, and this day marks the first of (hopefully) many anniversaries to come.

"Today is a momentous day." -Xemnas, Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days

Why I am choosing to start off the post with a quote from a video game, "I'm afraid I do not know" (Yen Sid, Kingdom Hearts II).

Today is the official anniversary of the viewing of my first Korean movie, an important step into the direction of living with a K-drama addiction.

The story of this step isn't anything special, and I don't want anybody to take my emotional descriptions too seriously...I don't know what else to say here without sounding awkward, so let's just hurry up and get to the story. :)

At midnight on February 4, 2013, a sad fifteen-year old sat on her bed and decided to open her laptop and go on Netflix. She had been listening to Korean music for about a month and a half by this point, and she thought that watching a Korean movie or drama would accompany the growing obsession well.

Well...the dramas she had bookmarked had episodes that she deemed far too long to maintain her focus. 

"One episode is over sixty minutes long?" she whispered to herself. "That's almost as long as a movie! I might as well just watch a freaking movie."

So she did. As was previously stated, this teenager was a sad one. There was never really anything that she should have been sad about, but her mind's always been distorted in one way or another. As a result, one of the first titles that screamed, "WATCH!" at her was the title that had the word, "Sad," in it.

Anyway, she clicked on Sad Movie and began the one-hour, forty-eight minute experience that started her descent into a new world of madness.

It certainly was a sad movie.

Side note: this kid, Yeo Jin Goo, is three months younger than me now...
This was his debut role.

It certainly made this teenager cry. (Except for that guy who started the break-up service; that story was just annoying.)

Her midnight viewing also made her terribly tired in school just hours later, but that was a necessary sacrifice. Just a few months later, she had watched three more Korean movies and was starting her first Korean drama, Boys Over Flowers.

This was decided on a coin toss, okay? Blame the
Moltres coin on her windowsill...

Since then, she's become a lot happier - undoubtedly due to, in part, the feels from all those pretty people and the plots and melodies surrounding them. While some friends, family, and teachers tease her for her Korean outbursts and enthusiastic connections to Asian television and music, some friends sympathize and mirror her enthusiasm. Some of the latter friends actually entered her social circle because of all of this. One of these friends, the friend who fueled the teenager's desire to enter the world of Asian-related feels, was the connection she needed to expand her personal joy and her 친구 group.

That reminds me; I've never really thanked that friend for that.

As I sit at my computer, listening to "Lucifer" by Shinee, my empty bowl of ramen on my desk, I am in the midst of multiple dramas; I have started a blog; I have become a part of a Kdrama chat group; and I have even joined a Drama Club on DramaFever (for Hours of My Life, in case you're curious).

Have I become less insane? Nope. My mind has been messed up for a long time, and the twisted nature of my psyche isn't likely to untwist anytime soon.

Have I become less of a wall flower? Somehow, I have. Even though I'm still quiet, I'm not always as silent as I was one year ago.

Have I become less sad? In general, yes. As I said, my mind has been messed up for a long time - ever since early childhood - so there's always that sense of inappropriate and unnecessary negativity. But I smile more. That warm feeling in my heart is there more often than it has been since my preschool/early-elementary-school years. (It wasn't as bad as I'm vaguely making it out to be - it's all a part of being an insane teenager :P)

I don't know what else to say that won't sound annoying, repetitive, or just plain dumb, so let's have this gif of Dan Howell take us out!

The year of some of the best feels of my life so far. O~O

It's been a pretty successful year, I think.



  1. Don't be sad *hugs*

    We have nominated you for a Liebster Award! ^.^ http://loreinstonecities.com/2014/02/13/liebster-award/

    1. Heehee :) *awkward, detached hug*

      Oh, thank you! (Ooooh, shiny... :P)